pure bliss~

2006-02-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

OH GAWDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the hell...someone help me larr....if theres even anyone who still reads my blog...lol! ok heres the situation...theres actually this really really gd tution teacher...i swear he's dam dam good..as in really really....but the really wierd thing is that...i have this really wierd feeling that he kinda of likes me!!!! what the hell larrr!!! i was like...shit!!! when he actually asked me out for dinner!!! im like what the shit!!!!!! anyway...tell me bt it...what shld i do!!! oh gawd!! i didnt dare tell my parents bt it cos i knw they'll force me to quit INSTANTLY!!! but the thing is that he's rea;;y dam good....really what a waste if i have to quit!! oh gosh...this really sucks..and like what the hell...he's like twice my age!!!!!!!!!! =S help! *gulp*

2006-02-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

FUNORAMA is in 2 mks time!!! yays!! its really getting more and more exciting!!! i really love it!!! Especially when i feel that my class is seriously getting more and more united through preparation for Funorama! =) painted our food banner today!! i helped to design it!! an oh boy did it turn out really great!! not that im boastful or whatever but it really really nice! but of course only with the help of my really great friends who helped painted the banner too!! great job guys!!! dont believe me..then come down to acjc and see it for urself!!!! heeheee...oh yah...if theres actually still anyone reading my blog right at this moment and who is interested in coming for ACJC's funorama funfair held on the 18th feb, sat, PLEASE contact me asap!!

oh another thing i feel blessed abt. im back in dance after my mom finally relented!!
i can still remember the last dance prac i had last tues! it was oh my gosh super uber duper fun!!!! 'Jerk it out' is the song we're dancing to and oh boy were the steps really nice!! only thing is that i i missed the previous lesson and thus i didnt knw the steps at all! had to learn them all within 5 MINUTES! but oh well..it was a really BIGGG challenge..but bottom line..it was still very fun!!!! =)))))

gd things do come to an end.

2006-01-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

orientation has just ended! and that only means 1 thing. back to studies! ah! =/
heres the juicy bits of my orientation 6..
first day of orientation..looking very much forward to it..with overflowing enthusiasm..
and then i saw my grp..was a little disappointed..
they didnt look as enthu as i hoped them to be..
or maybe its just cos my hopes were too high.
first game we played..tt name game..u knw tt game..where by u sit in a circle..and u add an alliteration to ur name..eg.."great gina" yea then it goes on and they have to repeat everyone's name from the beginning of the circle...u get the idea..
heres some of the names that popped up..'wise wilson', 'rare renard', 'talented theodore'
and the most outstanding one was..'pretty prashin'!! haha and mind u..prashin is a guy! lol!
he's ultra sporting and funny! super unexpected!=))
and theres this grp of cresent gurls in my grp! and they're reallly reallllyyy nice, sporting, fun loving people! not bad!
things definitely seemed much better!
then came games...not bad..thank god the gurls werent those sort of 'gu niang' kinda of gurls..infact..they rather all the dirty games! that involved mud water and starch!
then came the chore..taught them the dance...had a hard tiring but fun time though=)
and oh ya! did i mention..aayush joined me truout the whole orientation too! boy was it much better with him ard! he helped me alot in getting the grp's spirits up and even gave me lots of advice on how to be a better ogl..and oh gosh...i was so caught up with this whole orientation thingy that i actually forgot bt his bday which wason the second day of orientation..man..felt lyk suuuper bad..i mean..he must be super disappointed lar...we didnt even wish him happy bday or smth.. i really hate my lousy memory at times man.,.
anyway moving on...man...it rained lyk nobody's business lar..for almost all 3 days i think..but at least not for the entire day...was super soaked in the rain..and we just continued playing in the rain and stuff...was so worried that my grp or fellow ogls might fall sick or smth esp christine who's the weaker one..prayed very hard and thank god..my prayers have been answered..didnt fall sick at all..and i dint even lose my voice even after 4 days of hard core shouting! thank god!!
and on thurs..or was it wed..oh my..firstly..darling yush poured a whole bucket of water over me..getting me totally drenched..and mind u..it was raining then already..i was lyk shivering can..but its ok la..it just made the whole thing mroe fun=) and then..we were back at the bleachers getting ready for mass rally..and i dont knw why but i was seriously damn high..as in really high..kept laughing and making fun of my grp members and stuff..and then suddenly again..yush being the mastermind...started shouting 1!2!3! and then they carried me frm the bleachers all the way to the MUDDY DISGUSTING field and throw me there! oh gosh..it was super embarrassing man...wet and covered with really smelly mud..haha..but it was fun though!
last day of orientation..
although it was raining dam heavily..
camp fire was still a blast!
thank god that we managed to light the fire b4 it rained..
we moved to the badminton hall(plan b)
and we still had lotsa of fun!
and kyofu(the best lossehalin in the world) won 2 awards for the fashion show thingy! well done to dracula and the evil witch(who's in my grp and she rocks!!)
then we danced and danced...oh boy..it was ultra fun..we danced lyk i think a total of 17ooo times man...non stop and we just kept switching partners and all that..really fun..and then..
its time to go home..boooooooo....reached home at lyk 1! ultra tired..
haiz.
i want to go back to orientation!
i miss the people!
i can never thank god enough for the many new wondrous friends i made at orientation..

=( its over..

2005-12-29T23:14:00.000+08:00

man..its been lyk 10 yrs since ive last blogged..haha..dont knw why suddenly im blogging now again..just hope that perhaps most people already thought that my blog died or smth and so they wont bother checking it out again...haha...feeling rather blessed now=) really happy that my friend frm china...aka 'dao you' just sent me an email..almost thought he forgotten bt me or smth..miss him so much..and the rest too of course...feeling really bad for being so busy that i dont even have time to write them back a letter=( i so wish i'm back in china!! its sooooo fun!! arrrggghhh...every time i think of it..i feel so diaaaaoooo....cos i miss it so much...oh no..sudden realisation..4 more days and its back to sch time! arggghh!!! and ive not even completed 1/8th of my work! help! arrrrgghh! man..cant help but to keep whining bt it..really sorry to those people who must be feeling really very bored at the moment which is why ure actually reading my blog even though its so boring..

Dao You=) . Myself. WeiXi. TianNing.

2005-08-24T22:20:00.000+08:00

dam tired...bleah
oh man...guess what.i watched the best horror show today man!! the maid!! it was dam nice..lurvee it=) its so realistic and localised!! its actually being filmed in joo chiat! wth..i stay dam near there lar..my gosh..lol..pass by tt blue hse thousands of time b4 man..not bad not bad...this is definitely one of the most scariest horror show ive ever watched in my entire life man..its not those dumb horror shows where by something suddenly pops out and BOO at u..this is kinda of diff..i like it=) wheeee! go watch it if u havent done so! and not forgetting the plot..its interesting and theres a twist! unlike other horror films tt usually do not have a proper story line...

2005-08-23T22:07:00.000+08:00

goshhy...only 6 wks more to promos..scaryyy...
hhaha..today was dam coincidental man..was msging ben on the train itself and the thought tt he might actually be on the same train as me came into my mind..but didnt thought much bt it..and then all of a sudden he called me..haha..and i just instinctly turn and i saw him lyk a metre away from me..lol..it was lyk super qiao man..i was damn shocked..haha..so cool=) and again..he's as sickly as ever..haiyoo..
heehee..somehow..sch is getting fun-ner! haha..enjoying it=) love my class! 1AHR rocks! and love the bintan5 peepseys!! haha..they're ultra fun and nice!! cant wait to go bintan with these lovely funny peeps!! wheeeeeeeeeeeee! life rules for now. for now.

2005-08-15T22:28:00.000+08:00

double eyecandies=) whee!

2005-08-04T23:21:00.000+08:00

feeling really happy today!! gave mel a wonderful birthday surprise!! she was super shocked and happy!! heeeeheeee *widest goofy grin* and yum yum..had the best dinner at swensens today! heehee...just felt lyk releasing some joy!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! so happy!!!! bahbahabahahabahabahaba=)

2005-08-02T22:18:00.000+08:00

confused confused confused *blurred*
my vision's all blocked.
mist and grey
covering me over/
someone up there...pls guide me..i need ur guidance...

its you i long to know...

2005-07-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

Everyday, i draw closer to you lord/
captivated by your beauty; falling deeper in you
anyway..today i had the best service in my entire life..i personally witnessed the miracle of god..thousands of pple just fainted liddat infront of me..which is actually the work of the holy spirit..i was lyk totally astonished..its really the first time im experiencing this..today's inner healing session was abt driving away the evil spirits in ur body...and it really did happened...today we had pastor mike...and he was super gd..he said this really powerful prayer and 'healed' each and every idividual who needed it.. immediately after he prayed for them and touched their foreheads..they fell back immediately..its called ''slained'' i think..and then they started screaming really hysterically..it was quite scary actually...screaming..crying..coughing..shouting...almost all at once...and its almost lyk 1/3 of the people...i wonder when ill have such an encounter with the mighty one...

2005-07-28T20:15:00.000+08:00

feeling really bored with life now...something is just missing..cant seem to find tt special element to fill up that gap in me..is there anything wrong with me? i wonder...although im lyk super busy now...my life is pratically buzzing every sec..esp tt now i just took up 2 new projects..kidsread and ocip bintan5....but still..something is lacking within me...wierd..and im in search of it..

serious dilemma. wise one. pls guide me

2005-07-23T23:41:00.000+08:00

help!!! drop lit?? or not to drop...cant make up my mind..but seriously..lit is killing me..3 assignments by next wk..each essay 4 pages long..OH MY..and this i spent my whole morn coming up with only an essay outline...and i havent even read finish my texts lar...gonna die..esp when i hate reading...although othello is quite interesting...but its so hard to figure what they're trying to say..haiyayayayayaya...helppppppppppppp

tired..but feeling ''whheeee''

2005-07-21T23:21:00.001+08:00

hehe..butterflies..love them to the bits..just realised that i have butterfly stuff all around me..my clip..my pencil case..my drawings..my earrings..my necklaces...never ending..love butterflies!! oh well..feeling tired of school..had a dam long day today..had geog test after sch..almost died..and oh man..today was pratically the coldest day of my entire life..seriously man..i felt as though i turned in to an ice berg larr..and when i get out of the freezing ice cold room or lecture theatre..i felt lyk a defrosted chicken...bleah..remind me to bring my sweater the next time round man..

tired..but feeling ''whheeee''

2005-07-21T23:21:00.000+08:00

2005-07-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

wah lao..peijun dam act cute larr..haha..who's talking

2005-07-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

didnt knw its true.
wonderful me.
lived thinking its non existent.
when its actually b4 my eyes.
felt downcasted upon knwing.
and help is beyond it.
u made it so real.
and so true tt it hurts.
silence kill. deeply and slowly.

2005-07-02T11:35:00.000+08:00

2005-07-02T11:15:00.000+08:00

=) best pals

just a random picture..trying out

2005-07-02T11:09:00.000+08:00

bored...

2005-07-02T10:39:00.000+08:00

haha..im in like some bogger class now lar...how smart huh..my beautiful sat mornng..oh well..its ok..nvm..im going shopping later..WHEE!!!!!!! *curse whoever who took mel's phone*

glee=)

2005-06-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

wheeee...im happy! not sure why also...prob cos exams is ALMOST over..muahaha..only left chi paper..but then again..im worried man...tml alevel chi oral..bleah..and i only discovered bt tt today..im so dead lar..haha..when i knew..i immediately went for crash course at my chi tution place lar..lyk almost the whole day..not really exactly helpful..but at least i feel a little better...lyk as though at least i did try to prepare..hehe...cant wait for all the shopping plans after exams..and all the catching up with all my beloved friends!! *excited*

exams...nearing..very near..

2005-06-25T23:12:00.000+08:00

wheee!! exams nearing..how exciting..*whinewhinewhine* *sobsobsob* dam shit larrrrrrr...arrrrghh..been so caught up in dance...then left only 1 wk of my supposedly beautiful hols..and then i have to use it up for studying..how wonderful...and now..its all gooooneee.....noooo!!!! and im nearing terms...infact..exactly37 hrs away...blEAHH......help *gulp*

bahbahblacksheephaveuanywool....wake up!!!!!!!!!1

2005-06-21T22:04:00.000+08:00

oh holy mama..im really dying..pls save me...im super sick lar...fever...super bad irriatating flu..and ultra pain sore throat...pls..anybody out there..i really need a miracle now...exams are next wk..and ive studied only nuts...shucks...and its only 4 DAYS AWAY....help!!!! i wanna go drown myself already..man..im feeling sooo sian tt even shopping doesnt help life my moods..haiyayayaya..i think its really after dance syndrome...durin dance i was really perfectly fine lar..even when every single other dancer was falling sick..and then..immediately when dance ended...i fell so ill..haizzzz....study study....wad an ugly 5 letters word...bleah*

after a long loooong time...

2005-06-09T21:30:00.000+08:00

oh man..its been such a long time that i can actually sit down and relax...as in lyk go online..slack and blah..just had a camp for the past 3 days..yea..which explains my ''blogging absence''..and from now till performance day...there'll be dance everyday(including sun) from 10am to 10am...cant even celebrate my wonderful so called sweet seventeen...nvm..it'll soon be over..and then exams will come..cool huh..

a sense of nostalgia...

2005-06-04T23:13:00.000+08:00

oh man..i went back to tk tonight..for masquerade night..tk drama camp..oh man..i really miss the sch...the pple tt used to be there..as i looked ard..i can almost visualise my ex tk friends walking ard the familiar compound..ard the canteen..corridors...everywhere..i really really wished ac had more ''tk'' pple...man...but anywae..im really contented with the friends i have in ac=) andrina...keying...adelle...love you guys to the bits!! really made me feel very happy when im with u all..looking very much forward to the camp with u all this mon!! man..still 4 more tickets to go...shucks..and i have practice tml...from 1 to 9!!! gosh..but nvm...its ok..cos im enjoying every single min of it!! =) it'll be all worth it in the end..dont blv? come watch our performance! hehe^ 0=)

feeling random..

2005-05-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

man..went to watch camalot yesterday..it was really dam dam cool..omg....acsian theatre is really professional man..feeling so proud of them man..heehee=) oh gosh oh gosh..tml is cut off day for dance...man...i really hope ill stay on...those who cant make it will get kicked out..sad right...haiz..and theres sch tml also..econs in the morning..then dance all the way till 6..wow..what a life..interesting eh..dance everyday...wowowowow...bleh

2005-05-27T00:28:00.000+08:00

love my friends.
love my life.
love my dance.
love my family.
love my sch.
love my teachers.
love me love u.
love everyone!
WHEEEE!!!!!
=)

2005-05-22T23:43:00.000+08:00

something is wierd.
u've been appearing.
in all my dreams.
cant help it.
something within.
is tugging me.
from all corners.
that its hurting.
sometimes i wished.
u were here.
but too bad.
you can only.
be in my dreams

2005-05-22T20:59:00.000+08:00

haiz...dam sian lar..im lyk supposed to be doing my lit essay now..
man..i have lyk 4 essays to do lar..not forgetting eng compre and maths tutorial...haiz..arrrrghhh..never felt this way b4...seriously...
lyk suddenly everything's rather wierd...conflicts with friends..problems with study..a dead life...
life's a total mess...

2005-05-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

another irritating day. babahbleah!
arrrghhhhhhhh!!!!!!
whine whine whine!!
cant wait for this friday...wheehee
feeling eloqual...tts just a random word by the way..
today was a dam tiring day.
tts all for now.
another boring post,
bababahayayaya

2005-05-15T21:51:00.000+08:00

why lead me to this.
misery of denial.
fate of suffering.
a pure living hell.

2005-05-13T21:41:00.000+08:00

*ECHORWEN* if u can hear me..i miss u!!!
haizzzz....hopefully..hopefully...
most of us can make it next fri..
try ur best k!! esp tingtingting!!
man..today's one of the most depressing and stressful day ever,
maybe cos its friday the thirteen..
had 2 econs test..prob gonna fail both..
felt lost in maths AGAIn.
didnt eat recess or lunch. cos was looking for teachers.
had an ultra boring talk after sch till 6pm!
felt even more lyk shit.
when i realise ive got lyk 4 tests next wk.
chi promos!!
arrrghhh!

2005-05-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

haha..just passed maths test today..lyk WOW...
what a success...
just found out tt dance is gonna be EVERYDAY during jun hols!!
there goes my life....mannn....nvm...shall stop whinning...

2005-05-09T22:00:00.000+08:00

man...went rollar blading today...
fun fun! heehee...feeling quite lyk shit..
tests this wk...tests next wk..
HAIZ..........life.....sucks...
dingdongbell...pussyinthewell...crapcrapcrap....plsdontread
haha....ill promise tt ill blog more often yea...hehe..ill try....

2005-05-08T22:52:00.000+08:00

shitty shitty shitty..i just cut my hair today...and oh lord..its a little tweeny bit too short..yelp!

2005-05-08T21:55:00.000+08:00

still. hurting. within.
time. passes. by.
but. still. im.
hurting. within.

2005-05-08T21:44:00.000+08:00

=) heeee....finally...after lyk a trillion yrs...im back again...posting my once in a million post..hehe..ok..maybe just a slight exaggeration...man..here i am slacking..when i have a irritating maths test tml..seriously...jc life is so sickening....its lyk ultra stressful..my homework seems to be piling up endlessly lyk a bottomless pit...and one impt note to make..im really missing alot of pple!! i miss my og very very much!! YUSHI...TINGGGGG..MAO..ANTZ...MUSH...haiz....come back pple!! i miss my ex tk friends too...esp xiaoqi...ooi..sam..suilan...mel..drama peeps...chong..everybody!!! arrrrghh!!!

2005-04-09T21:24:00.000+08:00

Your face that seemed like heaven
From now on is pure hell
The awful truth that held no answers
Ripped me from my revery
The meaning lost, the innocence
That kept me going on my way
My world be shattered by your lips
That summon up the words you say
This is the time of letting go
Both of us will find new ways
Life will continue in its flow
But the memories stay
Unnoticed moments full of anger
This turned you into what I see
Or did the truth that I do face now
Build this throne of misery
Times do pass and wounds do heal
My soul was struck by all this strife
Every rose does bear its thorns
But it`s beauty stays alive

2005-04-06T22:49:00.000+08:00

dam shit..seriously feeling dam shit these few days man..suddenly feeling im lyk the shittiest..lousiest dancer..feeling ultra dam fat....hidieous...horrendous looking....arrrgggghhh.untalented. stupid...what more can i ask for man...why is it tt every single moment of my life is bound to have some problem.....haiz...life..
went for dance at LA dance connection today..my god..the pple were dam gd lar..my goodness..i was lyk dam shit there lar...arrrggghh....man

2005-04-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

why i want to stay in dance:
1. i enjoy or rather LOVE dancing.
2.Restless 2 seems really fun to be in.
3. err...

Why quit dance:
1. gonna take up ALOT of time.
2. the pple
3. too stressful.
4. raj too scary at times
5. i have other stuff to concentrate on. lyk studies. latin. social life.
6. i can always take up dancing at a dance sch.
7. no more pearls points
8.pple in dance too gd for me.
9. need i go on? its already more than enough reasons.

conclusion:
im quitting dance. final decision. nth's gonna change my mind. period.

2005-04-01T22:45:00.000+08:00

love totochan...mamajun...acjc...love my new class! haha..really had fun today at a resort lyk place man..peijun's hse! lol..sang karaoke..ate junk..played the piano..talked crap...dam interesting...man...dam fun...hehe..must definitely do this again man..and im dam happy...just found out tt i got into AHR...hehe..scholar class..lol.best class in acjc..not bad ey...tt will mean tt we'll be getting the best teachers man! woohoo...=) and also one more thing..found out tt i manage to get into entree council man..surprising sia..thought i totally screwed up the interview..so...ill be quitting dance soon..yeah!=))

2005-03-29T22:16:00.000+08:00

quite happy today! wheee..hehe..went window shopping with dancy keying=) and watched miss congenality..dam nice...very funny...and man i left my file there lar...and goondoo me didnt realise till lyk at night when i decided to be gd and do some studying..then realised my file missing in action..so...my parents actually sent me all the way to tiong bahru plaza to get the file..thank god i managed to find it man..all my precious pics!!! well..so much for wanting to study tonight....haiz...

2005-03-27T20:57:00.000+08:00

sometimes..i find myself wondering..
why...why am i leading my life this way..
am i happy this way? maybe..perhaps..i dont knw..
theres just so many questions in this world..
but who can actually answer them...
why are my parents lyk tt..
why's my studies lyk tt..
why my love life is so screwed up..
why are my friends betraying one another..
why is the world full of hatred..
why is life sp sucky..
why why why.....haiz...
someone pls tell me...

2005-03-25T21:12:00.000+08:00

man...after such a long long long time..im finally back here again...been kinda of busy..so didnt blog much...also..ive been trying to get a new template...but cant find any nice ones..haha..today was kinda of fun man..went georgie's church..helped her put on make up and all..haha...and as usual..we laughed lyk crazy again..esp with tt crazy ah soh lea ard...haha..it was super fun...i really miss those times man...when we're still in tk..all so innocent and stuff...laughing lyk nobody's business...not bothering to care how others will think bt u...haiz..guess things are much different now...really miss tt life...miss all my friends frm tk!! lurve u ll guys!!! esp the gang!! drama peeps!! arrrgghh!!!!!!! =(

2005-03-15T22:01:00.000+08:00

my god....im lyk ultra burnt...went to sentosa today(ahem..mr.cool)...gosh...im lyk a lobster man!! dam red and hot! super pain lar...shucks..time to slab some moisturizer on my skin man...anywae....the hols have been good for me so far man..enjoying it...not too busy..yet not too slack..somemore no homework man...shiok sia...really hope ill be granted permission to go clubbing this sat...haiz..(keeping my fingers crossed)...

2005-03-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

Thats it. climax reached. seriously cant take it anymore.

2005-03-09T20:23:00.000+08:00

oh man..dance was lyk super fun today...enjoyed it lyk hell man..dance lyk non stop for 3 whole hrs!! dam tiring...hmm feeling quite wierd today man..back hm so early... i actually reached hm b4 7 lor! usually ill reach hm after 10 only cos of drama...but now..im no longer in tt production...wheeepeeee!! heeeeeeheeeee...im still super looking forward to dance camp..ACJC DANCE ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-08T23:09:00.000+08:00

Never promise her that you'll love her forever because your forever might end the next day
Love her as if each day is the last~

2005-03-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

raffles-laselle or ac....haiz...so confused..council or dance....or drama...so many choices to make...in one short life of mine..well..guess this is just the way life is..anywae...learnt ''lemon crush'' today man..super fun...i like it!! haha. and im super looking forward to dance camp this fri man!! arrgghh!!cant wait!! wheeee~

2005-03-05T19:15:00.000+08:00

love sick~

2005-03-05T19:11:00.000+08:00

feeling really blissful now...dont knw why also..just feeling so carefree...tml theres latin=) and class outing too...although im not really very close to my class peeps...im still looking forward to it..and things really seem to be going gr8...at least for now...*machopom* muacks!

2005-03-04T10:08:00.000+08:00

time seems to be moving so slowly..
when everything is going against u..
why cant things go my way this once..
why cant i be happy for once..
i seriously hate my life lyk hell...

2005-03-02T22:55:00.000+08:00

hmm..feeling rather lighter now man..as in lyk..i just pulled out of camalot..nt entirely..ill still be doing the opening dance..but tts bt it..so not so bad..not only have dance..feeling quite shiok...but then again..feeling quite shitty...cos argued with dad yesterday...asked for more freedom and stuff...and he seemed really damn sad and disappointed man..hasnt spoken to me since then..and he's so quiet..unlyk his usual talkative crappy self..haiz.....

2005-03-01T21:33:00.000+08:00

so much on my mind.
so much to think abt.
feeling so stressed.confused.troubled.
frustrated.irritated.disappointed.upset.
a tumolt of feelings.
rushing in all at once.

2005-02-28T23:24:00.000+08:00

if only.
i had just a little bit more freedom.
how much better will tt be.
dont u think
i shld have my own right of freedom.
im not a locked up bird.
im supposed to be free.
leading me own life.
then y am i feeling so trapped
in this stupid jail called home.
seriously.
i wish someone can come and save me.
take me to his castle
faraway frm here.
help.

2005-02-28T23:21:00.000+08:00

well. got back my results. did quite alright. 9 points. screwed up my eng. got a b3. the rest distinctions. met all my targets except for eng. overall not bad. but why arent i feeling happy bt it? honestly speaking. i dont give a damn bt results anymore. sux.

2005-02-28T23:15:00.000+08:00

how long more.
i wonder.
how long more
can one take it.
theres a limit.
which's soon to be reached.
when tt happens.
all's to be blamed.
esp the one who caused it.
but i blame noone.
but myself.
actually no.
i do blame u.
u ruined things.
u think ure helping me.
u think by doing this.
ure saving me.
but no.
ure killing me.
doesnt mean im silent means im fine.
cos im really not.
think bt it.
how long more
can one take this.
pls dont reach the stage
of regret.
cos tt'll be all too late.
and infact.
i dont give a damn anymore.

2005-02-27T01:30:00.000+08:00

hmm..this morning went for the singapore dance masters thingy..omg..the dancers are sooooooo goooood...i sooo love latin!! man..im lyk super inspired...actually i was intending to quit my latin dance..but now..im reconsidering again man..seriously..its lyk soo cool...and i was also supposed to take part in a competition in lyk june..but i dont think ill have the time man...booo!!! and also my dad not very happy bt it..haiz...met up with mel..not bad..watched r and j and half the time we're asleep! LOL yea!! cant wait for tml..latin in morning...then gonna go kite flying!! heeeeeehheeee...then at night..hmmmmm...special.....then MONDAY...RESULTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH! good luck to everyone btw.....=) wheeee..

2005-02-24T22:01:00.000+08:00

today was quite a great day..very slack at sch man..had swim pe...it was not bad actually..mark ng rocks! then after sch had og dinner..a pity i had to go back early..didnt get to see melvin get his hair cut....man..mon we'll get back our results already..cant wait..super anxious....shld i stay in ac?? i really cant make up my mind man...shit..im lyk super undecisive....help!!

2005-02-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

haiz...seriously i wonder...how can one claim to love someone so much when he or she doesnt even care if the other party is suffering lyk hell..is this what they call love? i wonder.....

2005-02-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

hmm..dont knw why but somehow now im feeling quite alright..feeling tt everything is under control..which is really gd..but not sure how long this feeling will last man..well..today had dancr and drance..dance is getting really boring..the beat is lyk ultra slow...gosh...and drance was lyk so tough..total opposite...so much of those guy carrying gurls stuff...i seriously pity the guy carrying me man..he prob grew more muscles after carrying me eachtime man..i better stop eating so much man..gotta start losing weight..for the sake of my poor partner man..well..this is gonna be a short entry..theres geog test tml man..shucks....well..im gonna zZzZ already...

2005-02-21T22:41:00.000+08:00

hmm..suddenly im lyk just feeling daM light hearted lar...was listening to the radio earlier on..then the ''super star'' song came on...and b4 i knew it..i was lyk doing some of the mass dance steps...all the happy memories of the orientation started to float ard me..and i really miss it alot alot man...all the fun..haiz..now im lyk facing some serious dilemma..im not sure if i want to stay in ac....seriously..i cannot really take it anymore..the pple are so bloody fake..super artificial...and i hate it lar...somemore the teachers arent really tt gr8...haiz..how!!! but even then..i dont even knw which other sch to go man..vj seems too gd for me lar...sa sounds not bad..but they say its super slack..and knwing me this kinda of person..i can go and die arleady lar..and oh ya..one more thing..i love ting~ hehe...seriously man..she's lyk one of the really FEW true friends tt i have in acjc..and now she's lyk thinking of going hc....ROAR..haha..if she go i might as well leave also man....

2005-02-19T22:36:00.000+08:00

my my my...finally finally...night of laughter is over..almost died man..everyday stayed back till 9 plus..reached hm bt 10 plus...super tiring man..homework all undone...well..the thurs show was rather shitty for me man...dam horrible..i had an ultra bad sore throat...my voice cracked lyk some sick frog...almost died man..then i forget an entire section of the play....but luckily overall still managed to survive thru it man...but still..tt night was really memorable cos 2 really gr8 pple...ant and mush...came to watch me..oh ya...not forgetting melvin too=) both ant and mush got me a bouquet of flowers. i was lyk super touched...it was lyk dam dam super sweet of them...but i was lyk so paiseh also..everybody else only recieved an ordinary single stalk rose...while im lyk carrying a huge bouquet of flowers man..thanks guys!!! love ya sooo much!!! friday's show went pretty well...although it was still freezing cold man..this time round my family came to watch me...but sadly..no bouquet this time..hehe...hmmm...today had dance in the morning..not bad..beginning to enjoy it more...really love the partner steps...lindyhop...fun....but then...became dam sick in the afternoon...coughing lyk some mad dog..then went shopping..had only lyk an hr plus..but bought lyk super many stuff.....haha..and now..shit..back to reality..gotta go catch up on all my undone work..shit...life suddenly sucks again...arrghhh!

2005-02-15T23:29:00.000+08:00

omg...ive never felt so shit in my life b4...seriously man..everything feels lyk crap...im lyk having a bloody fever...head aching lyk hell...feeling dam tired...just came back not long ago...had drama rehersal..and worst thing..ive got damn bloody screwed by my teacher today man..really feeling lyk some shit...my studies are so gonna die...im lyk way behind for almost everything..all the tutorials are lyk piling lyk nobody's business...already didnt go sch today..looks lyk ill have to skip sch tml again...arggghh...someone..help me man...

2005-02-15T12:37:00.000+08:00

sorry.....im so sorry....i dont knw what else to say....
im sorry...
for the times i treated u so badly..
for the times when i ignored u..
for the times when i hurt u lyk hell..
for the times when u felt lyk shit cos of me...
i knw tt no matter how many times i apologise...it'll be nv be enough to bring us back to where we used to be...if only u knew what im feeling now....

2005-02-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

given up. totally given up.

2005-02-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

gosh...today's vday..and this was supposed to be one of my most fav days...apparently its not the same this yr...i wasnt in the mood for it at all man...had a super terrible headache in the morning..was feeling lyk shit...had rehersals till lyk 9 plus...dam shit lar...but at least my day was being brightened up by 2 wonderful pple...mush and yush!!! (just realised tt it rhymes) thanks guys!! love ya!! they gave me a sunflower and a beautiful huge rose...really appreciate it! =) MUACKS*

2005-02-13T21:22:00.000+08:00

if only...maybe..perhaps...all these wouldnt have gotten to such a nasty stage..im sorry for bringing u so much hurt...its really not ur fault...im feeling super frustrated now...just feel so like screaming and yelling..here right inside me...im really dying..seriously...but i cant even do anything bt it..i feel so useless...so hopeless..so helpless....help..seriously..if ive got 1 wish to make..ill wish tt everything will be back to normal after my sleep....arrrrrghhh!!!!!! i so feel lyk dying lar...all the mistakes tt ive made...all the times tt ive hurt u so badly..its really killing me now...if only u can understand how i feel...if only we can start things afresh...but nah..tts just wishful thinking on my part...forget it....im going to sleep now...yar right...lyk i can....life really sucks big time...for once..im really hating it....

2005-02-13T18:12:00.000+08:00

disappointed. just disappointed.

2005-02-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

damn tired man....had dance in the morning..drama in the afternoon..man...im seriously gonna die soon man. im super lagging for my studies lar...esp econs..maths also..shit man...time seems to be passing so dam fast...if only i could control it...feeling quite happy actually...helped one of my gd friend...anywae...this is gonna be a short post...cos im seriously gonna zonk out very soon...

2005-02-10T10:37:00.000+08:00

where were u...
when i needed u the most..
when i needed someone to talk to..
when i needed a shoulder to cry on..
when i needed a listening ear..

when i was feeling down..
when i was feeling angry..
when i was feeling confused..
when i was feeling all alone..

just when i thought i've finally found u..
i lost u once again...
where are u...

2005-02-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

hmmm..today did quite alot of visiting...supposedly collected quite alot of angbaos...but still..its so miserable!! so sickening...every yr its always the same...and man..i didnt even buy any new yr clothes this time round...cos actually i sorta of buy clothes all yr round..haha..haiz...man...i dont have anything suitable to wear for tml man...shucks...arrrghhh.....

2005-02-08T23:14:00.000+08:00

Trying to forget someone important to you is like trying to remember someone you never knew...

2005-02-08T22:33:00.000+08:00

wow...just when i thot the peeps in ac are not bad....i realised tt there are so many superficial pple around..and its getting really scary...making me have second thoughts bt staying in ac...these pple really seem lyk they could be trusted...but its all a pretence...all fakes...and i really hate tt..but anyway tru this u'll also get to realise who are ur true friends whom can really be trusted and u knw tt u can rely on them...and who are ur ''pretend'' friends whom u cant depend on at all...well...anyway...bt today...my god..what a scary experience i had man...nerve wrecking experience man..this morning...went all the way to sch...and then last min decided to pon the concert to go out with a few of my og members...haha..ant me mush ting...but it was fun though...nv tried smth liddat b4...and tt mush arh...haha..he was lyk freaking bloody scared man!! damn funny...haha..he couldnt even talk properly lar...he was lyk stuttering... and we were lyk all hiding behind the door....at the void deck staircase there...damn funny..then every time when theres lyk someone walking by or smth...we'll all quickly hide behind the door..and tt chicken mush..haha...run till so far away to hide lar...hmmmm....had dance....then went to watch shall we dance...its damn nice....sUPER SWEEEEEEEEET...omg....almost fainted.haha....

2005-02-07T22:37:00.000+08:00

ure missing frm my life..
ure so busy with urs..
im so busy with mine...
u dont seem to put in any effort..
and im so pissed with tt..
will things ever work out fine..
i seriously doubt it...

2005-02-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

i am so so soooooooooo freaking pissed. i really need to vent my frustration on smth man...ARRRRRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! god....i hate sch!!!!! so much bloody homework!!!!!! lit essays. geog essays..maths tutorials...chi compos...eng newspaper reports....econs tutorials...never ending!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! today's supposed to be a happy day...went shopping with my best pal..bought lotsa of stuff...just realised ive spent ALL the money in my bank within just a few mths..mom freaking mad...nagged non stop...im so gonna die....help....god................

2005-02-05T00:25:00.000+08:00

man..home sweet home...just reached hm not long ago...gosh..felt so damn bad man..went to watch some production..and left halfway...cox we were lyk so hungry...ok...tts not really the main reason..but whatever..so we ended up at BK..my god..sch today was ULTRA boooooooooring...my gosh...should have pon man...dammit...had lyk 3 whole periods of econs!! my god..almost died...damn sian....my goodness...all my assignments are lyk starting to pile in man...esp lit!!! so many essays to write...help!!! and met aayush today man..who didnt seem lyk his norm...wonder whats wrong......

2005-02-03T22:23:00.000+08:00

i finally understood.
i finally decided.
i need my rights.
i need my life.

2005-02-03T18:00:00.000+08:00

never say hello if ure gonna say goodbye
never look into my eyes if its all only a lie
never hold my hands if ure gonna let it go
never kiss me if ure gonna break my heart
never talk abt feelings if they arent really there
never say u love me if u dont really care
never say u miss me if u dont mean it at all
never lock up my heart if u dont have the key
never say forever cos forever makes me cry

2005-02-02T21:49:00.000+08:00

omg..im like damn tired. had dance pratice followed by drama today..but still feeling gd..haha..cos i didnt come to sch in the morning..slept till lyk 10 plus..gosh..first time in dont knw how long man..so far im really enjoying the life in ac man..its damn fun..and the pple rock man..i love my og..dance mates too!! and not forgetting the ''bimbo club'' lol..its lyk *dUh* haha..okok..enough..cant stand it..anywae..when we're going out again man!!(referring to my og) im missing u guys already!! arrrghhh!! must go out soon k!!

To melissa...

2005-02-02T12:26:00.000+08:00

to melissa....
Im not sure if u'll ever get to read this..but i really want u to knw tt..
i really miss all the times we shared together.the endless laughter.the explicit joy.
i miss the times when we did everything together.when theres melissa,there'll be gina.we're almost like twins.sisters.brothers.we even slept on the same bed together.
i miss those times when we were unseparable.able to tell each other everything.remember those nights when we had heart to heart talks all the way till dawn?we just always had smth to talk abt.even when theres silence btw us. we'll still walk away feeling lyk we just had the best conversation.ure the only one who could really understand me.my actions.my thoughts.my behaviour.and somehow.thats why.u seem like the only one who i can really turn to when i need someone to talk to.even my aunty sometimes dont understand me as well as u do.only when im with u,then i can really be my true self. i never ever need to put up this front when im with u. to others, im one huge crap.but tts cos they've never seen the other side of me.
i miss all our shopping trips together.even when we did not buy anything,it'll still be equally fruitful.
i miss all the times when we chilled at starbucks. u drink urs(rhumba) i drink mine(caramel).and now we drink caramel rhumba frappachino.remember how excited we were when we discovered tt drink.haha.remember how we were lyk saying tt tt drink is specially made for the 2 of us.
i miss all the sleep overs at either ur place or mine.although most were at ur place.we were always supposed to have a movie marathon.but i always fall asleep even b4 the first movie ends.
i miss watching all those really cheesy and romantic movies with ya.remember how we'll cringe and squish whenever its a very touching scene.or whenever the couples are gonna kiss.
i miss the times in drama.remember our first play? snow white and the 7 dwarfs.u were sleepy and had to be dragged across the stage! and i was grumpy.haha
i just miss this friendship tt we used to share. the company i used to have. i miss the comfortability tt we shared btw us.i miss the stupid quarrels tt we had. i miss u so much gurl.

and then things had to change. so much had happen within just a short period of time.
we went to different schools. and im not sure if u felt the same way. but i felt that friction had grown btw us. u knw. becos of tt. somehow. i no longer feel the same way when im with u.even though i see u every sun for latin. we dont even talk. and i really hate tt.sometimes i do want to talk to u.but somehow.for the first time.i felt lyk i didnt knw what to say to u.i felt wierd.and i just feel tt u dont want to talk to me.im not sure why things became like this.why cant our friendship be as b4?

heeeheee..latin dance rocks!

2005-01-30T22:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm...went for lunch with relatives and all...baby cousin's bdae...gosh...and his bdae cake was lyk 160 bucks!! from haagen daz...god..it was lyk heaven..damn grand lar...we were lyk in some VIP room...sang karaoke and all...then later went for latin dance...and for the first time..im dancing with proper latin shoes man!!! whEeeheeee...damn nice man...latin is really cool..u all should take it up if u have the time man..haizzzzzzzzz....man...tml must go sch again...damn sian...but at least theres drama rehersals after sch...so not so bad...hey pple...u all must come support me and nada k...we're in the ''Night of Laughter'' production...

hmmmmmmmmmppphhh!!!!

2005-01-30T09:37:00.000+08:00

im lyk so damn bloooody pissed..why cant my dad learn how to speak in a nicer tone..whatever tt comes out frm his mouth wil definitely be either very harsh words or just pure ranting..damn it..i cant stand it lar..spoiling everyone's mood....sometimes ure only just asking him a simple thing..then he'll reply with some mad shouting...crazy....i wished he would not be that unreasonable....

eChorweN~

2005-01-29T21:22:00.000+08:00

whEeeeeee=) finally..my blog is done!! hehe *bleesh* just one thing to say. echorwen rocks till bulls can fly~ love ya guys!!! *muACKS*